subliminal desires

2006-08-09T14:13:00.000+05:00

Let your thoughts flow towards me

Urges

2006-06-25T11:57:00.000+05:00

One step closer to ecstacy

One step away from indifference

and Again

2005-12-25T19:22:00.000+05:00

And he softly conversed with the little one
“You, with your head down, your time has come”
Trembling with fear, while darkness swathed his world, he replied weeping tears of angels “So soon? But I still have to prove my worth.”
“You would only sit here and lick your wounds, if I leave you behind tonight”
said the rumbling voice, shaking the little one out of slumber.
He again questioned innocently “Can’t anyone break through this cold bubble? I have made it through the hard time, Have I not?”
“You lack confidence in me, my child, for you forget that I see through your cold circle, I see the marooned skies and I see where you will lie” he answered back with years of sighs.
“Show me tonight, the paleness I cannot see from here, show me tonight, if I rid myself of life that remains, all that you want me to leave behind”.
“I comprehend your dreams and it isn’t a crime that you urge to fly.” He provided empathy to little trembling soul, “there are times when you souls goes to wrong, there are nights when your growl at the moon, if you let me tonight, I intend to set your essence to right.”
He reached to the little soul with his hard yet warming hands, breathed a fraction of life to him and calmly said “Hold your chin high, for you are one of the few who don’t stay down on their knees”
They both flew away, as fast as light, the embryo was too cold for him to evolve, for he was too innocent to face the waves alone. As the lid uncovered the eye, there was no impression of that tiny being left. I bathed my eye to wash away the maroons, the pales and the blues. As for the little one, he will be conceived again, until the lid covers my eye again, until I dream again and again.

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You dont remind me of anything

2005-10-16T16:23:00.000+05:00

Things that i've loved,

Things that i've lost,

Things i've held sacred,

That i've dropped.

I wont lie, no more,

You can bet.

I dont want to learn,

What i'll need to forget.

Underneath These Layers

2005-10-02T13:59:00.000+05:00

Well, the tiniest little dot caught my eye and it turned out to be a scab

And I had this funny feeling, like I just knew it's something bad
I just couldn't leave it alone I cut off that scab

It was a doorway trying to seal itself shut But I climbed through

Now I am somewhere I am not supposed to be

And I can see things I know I really shouldn't see

And now I know why now, and now I know why

Things aren't as pretty, on the inside

# 5

2005-09-27T22:57:00.000+05:00

You know what they say, 5th time is a charm :)

5 years ago: Yes thats when it all started, summer 2000. KRASH's first play, 'off to america'. best period of my life.rehearsals in afiat mehal, entering alhamra gaddafi hall 1 and open air from the backstage for the very first time. going to mcdonalds drive thru on a cycle for the very first time and asking for a glass of water ^o).. memories yes millions..

one year ago: well Lums what else.. again at a semi crossroad lol i dont know what that means.. again have to define certain things.. again discovering myself in shadows of others.. where i belong.. where i dont.. understandings and some misunderstandings.. a little here and some there..
5 songs i know all the words to: my memory is very good so i know a LOT of songs.. so ill write the 5 songs that mean the most to me..1.Wish you were here- pink floyd2.High n Dry- Radiohead3.Deep inside of you- 3rd Eye blind4.Shiver- Coldplay5.Creep- Radiohead
5 snacks i enjoy: snacks um.. well i enjoy all eatables usually :D..garlic mayo fries, my very own mayo blackpepper toasts :D..philadelphia(garlic) on toast, croissaint cheese..and this last one used to be my fav havnt had it for a while candi biscuits dipped in tea :D
5 things i'd do with $100 million: hee hee *evil eyes* well ill give a heavy donation to Bayern Munchen and ask them to let me play for their team *sob*ill make my very own state of tech, sound lab, recording studio and finally produce music.ill make my very own state of tech, production house for movies muahaha:yea like ami, take a trip and see all i want to see..yea like ross, invest in a very low yeild bond which is very very secure muahaha :D (chandler: OOOO..! Calm Down!)
5 places i would run away to: well i am home now so.. not home hehe..but yes brighton beach again.. naraan again.. alhamra open air..ali's room again.. my last rest is my bathroom(my tub)
5 things i would never wear: thongs! lol.. out in public?.. well i do have silver shorts n pjs so silver is ruled out.. but yes Gold no.. lol.. velvet No.!.. leather pants ^o).. hmMmm.. probably not those shiny ones which look like plastic..clothes shauki wears.. shirts 5 sizes larger than his.
5 fav tv shows: Friends like everyone, punk'd, these days desperate housewives, Ed! and.. umm.. Football Focus :D
5 greatest joys: hmMm.. playing football in rain, driving really fast late at night.. with my right hand out the window :D.. one yet to feel, seeing KRASH written on a huge huge billboard.rubbing my cheeks on a new borns head to feel the soft soft hair...people telling me after years.. and asking You are in KRASH ^o).. we thought it would be Grownups.. *disappointment/shock*
5 fav toys: Ninja turtles' figures iwas crazy abt them.. batman figures crazy abt them too.. LEGO!!! cars(dinkeys).. :D.. used to collect a lot of marbles if they count as toys.. : .. no?.. okay then.. that fishing game :D.. used to spend hours on that.. improving my fisherman skills..
5 people i'm tagging: well i dont know a lot of bloggers.. so i guess.. shauki?.. neha.. and um.. norman cook, michael ballack, and thom yorke.

my whole existence is flawed

2005-09-11T20:47:00.000+05:00

You can have my isolation

You can have the hate that it brings

You can have my absence of faith

You can have my everything

Through every forest

Above the trees

Within my stomach

Scraped off my knees

I drink the honey...inside your hive

You are the reason...I stay alive...

Hands That..

2005-08-18T11:05:00.000+05:00

Note: Here come the sketches

Heavenly Rides Through Sounds Of Rain

2005-08-08T22:01:00.000+05:00

Chicane

2005-07-26T11:37:00.000+05:00

on the stage, our act is to start,

we have rehearsed enough for this classic farce.

you pretend to be someone else and,

i'll do the same,

put on a fake skin,

and no one gets to come in,
because being ourselves is something

we cannot do,

we look for faces to cover our scars,

when you're staring right into the sun,

it's never easy to go very far.

Chanda Mamu

2005-07-24T14:34:00.000+05:00

chanda re, chanda re,

kabhi to zameen par aa,

bethein gay, baatein karain gay

Note: Having the urge to be natural and original(not computer generated). So you might see photography and sketching, no posters.

from heaven

2005-07-23T02:31:00.000+05:00

little drops from heaven,

they came pouring down,

waves they created in our little sea,

swept our little boat away.

waves

another you another me

2005-06-30T23:54:00.000+05:00

some live for fortune

some live for fame

but you and i

baby, we dont have much

except each other to live for

lets look for another place

lets search for another time

lets make another you

lets make another me

scars

2005-06-16T23:35:00.000+05:00

we walk with stones in the path

we live with scars in the heart

caprice

2005-06-14T22:35:00.000+05:00

all the cries that you are beginning to hear,

an angel sits and writes your story,

it's a sin how light turns into shadow

a wind that sweeps you away

you fall a victim to your own caprice

and it's the devil's way now

and there's no escape

gods, goddesses & salvation

2005-06-06T00:09:00.000+05:00

even when you hide behind your goddess,

even when you think i cant see you,

for you dont deserve salvation,

and i wont rest till i find my way,

for i am not afraid of fading.

karma

2005-06-04T16:27:00.000+05:00

the court has been set, our verdict will be passed soon,

our witnesses will shiver,

our sins, contemplated

the sounds of our own breath will start haunting,

the end is near.

reincarnation, fate, destiny

all has flown out of our hands

building urges & embracing desires

2005-06-01T00:00:00.000+05:00

what i mean is that.. this blogspot/website is under construction. im exploring stuff. and innovating.

epiphany

2005-05-31T01:30:00.000+05:00

i am nothing more than a little boy inside, who cries out for attention

yet i always try to hide

parabola

2005-05-31T00:02:00.000+05:00

I am just a worthless liar.

I am just an imbecile.

I will only complicate you.

Trust in me and fall as well.

I will find a center in you.

I will chew it up and leave,

I will work to elevate you

just enough to bring you down.